PSALM 27:4 "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple."

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Full of Frustrations

Im tired....and i want to slp...but i have so much frustrations i must let it out somewhere...it all started in the evening...my dad called me...and he asked:"what are u doing tmw?"...i really dread it whenever he ask me that...cos thats = i need help tmw...its last min..arrghhh...i got so frustrated..he does it to me ALL THE TIME! And i've already told him like a MILLION times NOT to tell me last minute stuff and esp NOT to touch my SUNDAYS! sigh...i've always felt very obliged to help my parents with their work...cos they're not young and i dun want them to overwork...its not the negative side of obligation but rather the i dun want them to work so hard or get injured or sick....and in fact i've always felt like im the only one they depend on(cos im the older son, plus i drive... and my sis usually dun help cos for the obvious reason she's a girl) and tts a whole load of responsibility...and if i dun help or cant for some reason i'll feel really bad and i'll feel like im a lousy son...but i also dun like it when my dad gives me last min stuff to handle...its like i've arranged everything nicely and plan who to meet or where to go and blah blah blah...then out of no where he'll come and tell me he needs help...i'll feel super irritated cos i have to cancel everything and go help him...then after telling me that, 10 minutes later i received another call from my dad and he ask me to go down in 5 mins to help him...im like....WAT! Cos i have to meet rach to practise for e workplan worship tmw morning which she's leading(rach u owe me one cos u said u'll come to my house 5pm but u never!!! u always put me plane! heee)...and if i go means i cant practise with rach till i come back and i dun know wat time will tt be...then if i dun go help my dad...NO ONE ELSE CAN! sigh...so once again i went...then he was like rushing and all...and i really dun like him rushing esp when he's behind the wheel...cos he'll end up driving fast...and he'll be really frustrated and he'll tailgate SUPER DUPER closely to the car in front...if u sit in his car when he's like tt and ur heartbeat dun go up twice or thrice i'll buy u a CAR!!! i've told him so many times dun tailgate...dun rush...cos accidents WILL happen....and he's got heart problem before and this kind of stress and rushing will trigger his heart even more...sigh...just when will he listen? Then also because he kept wanting to rush i got a huge cut on my back now...arrghh...so so frustrated...there's alot more but i think u guys will be sick and tired of it if i go on blabbing! So end of story is i got home...rushed to rach's house and practise then rush back and shower....and then here i am bloggin my frustrations...i really pray my dad will listen to advice one day...i know he just wants to give us the best but i dun want him to be doing it at a risky expense....im just gonna go slp now...its almost 1am i gotta wake up at 5ish...really tired now...

Gideon rocked it at 12:48 AM 1 comments

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At 7:32 AM, matt said...: i believe God will bless you when you honor your parents. Your frustrations shows who much your love your dad :)

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