PSALM 27:4 "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple."

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Painful Memories

I've been trying to sleep the past 1hr-ish...but i just cant fall asleep...i used to say:"we'll create beautiful memories together"...but now all i can say is i've created a whole load of painful memories to bear with for the rest of my life...its been almost 4months since tt very day...things just changed by a word...but inside of me...till this very day...things have not changed...the pain i've to go through each day...the memories that haunt me...what have i done SO WRONG to deserve all tt...so many things had been said to justify the reason given...but what is love at the end of the day? I used to tell myself if i ever love...i'll love wholeheartedly, be faithful and committed...i never once gave my heart to someone till im sure because i dun want to hurt anyone...and i never want to take love lightly...moreover to treat it as a game...but i've been fooled...the one who thought love will last forever...was left dealing with the PAIN while the one who wanted out...left happily and showed no signs of sadness till this day...was DISAPPOINTED by the very pple that he thought were his frens but turned their backs on him without hearing from him...was labelled CHILDISH...was called EMOTIONAL...was said to be INSECURE all the time...was CRUSHED so deeply he'll never forget it...was BETRAYED by the very words that told him how love was meant to be...I never in my entire life...NEVER thought somone could hurt me so so badly...i might as well be stabbed in my heart...cos at least tt will end the pain straight away...can anyone understand the pain i've to bear with? NO! And no one will EVER...i can hide it but i cant deny it...if that is how love is to be...i'll never want to have it...All i did was to LOVE...but i got SLAPPED and got nothing back and even have to deal with the lost ON MY OWN! when will it be over...it'll never ever be...its here to stay and it will be with me the rest of my life...and i'll have to take it with me FOREVER....DUN EVER SAY U LOVE SOMEONE WITHOUT THINKING CLEARLY WHAT LOVE MEANS....dun....

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Painful Memories

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