PSALM 27:4 "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple."

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Nothing

I haven been blogging the last few days cos i just really have no mood to...alot has been going on and i feel like im riding on the emotional rollercoaster again...its never ending...i never imagined my life wuld come to a point where i'll have to go through so much...and its even come to a point i fear wat else is ahead for me in my life tt i have to live with and cope with...to think tt i cant even handle wat im going through now...wat else can i when im sure there's gonna be greater challenges and tests ahead for me...my only hope lies in the LORD! To whom i seek and cry out to...i got nothing to say...i really need revival...

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Im Scared...

I had alot of time tonight to myself...everyone went out for their nights out...i din cos im on duty...i had so much time i became so pensive i felt im back to my emo self...im scared to hope and trust for something that's not there at all...i feel really depressed about it. What if i put so much of myself into it and get disappointed at the end of the day...i really dun want to be hurt again...i dun want...how do i ever trust someone believing that the person will not be letting me down...im scared to give part of myself away...it means im putting myself in a very vulnerable position....i hope if you're reading this tt u be thankful for people who actually trust you...it takes something from tt person to be doing that...dun ever let that someone who trust u with all their heart down...because there's too much pain and hurt to deal with that its gonna take a long time for that person to trust anyone again...my heart's crying out loud to you Lord...where do i go from here God...

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Back in Camp

So...its tuesday...and im back in camp...after a rather long and good rest over the wkend...btw really thank God, spoke to Lily about my vocal lesson..and i think more or less its confirmed tt she'll be able to teach me...phew! Gotta see her early oct for interview and get to know her studio policy...etc etc...im excited...heard so much abt her...think im gonna be so busy this wk...lotsa work to do and wkend will be so rush with Wheijie and Fabia's wedding cos im helping them film...then sunday got to come bk camp cos im on duty...bleah!!! totally burn my wk...lately i've been feeling so confused abt smth...n i really ask humbly for u guys to pray for me tt watever decision i have to make i'll be wise and tt God will guide me...its really a tough period and i hope i can handle all the emotions tt'll be coming my way...oh...u know yesterday i finally realised how Pastor Ronald felt when he said his heart felt sad when he had to discipline carrisa and when he "beats" her...cos Chloe was caught peeing in the kitchen instead of the toilet...then my mom grabbed her and use a ruler and spank her buttocks!!! haaa...it was funny cos at the moment she saw my mom she knew she had to run cos she did something wrong and she's gonna get punished...then i felt so bad...she looked so cute and helpless when being beaten...but she has to be taught...hopefully someday she learn to pee n poo in the right place...hee...Anyway for all of you out there who likes to dance...i've uploaded the dance my bmt mates and i did during our bmt days just click here..it was really fun. it was my first time dancing and i think i enjoyed it alot with the guys...maybe after i've completed all the training i want to i'll go join dance...since the doc says i got loose joints...maybe i can find myself doing some strange things...haaa...

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Romans 8:28

28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been

called according to his purpose.

Just one short but powerful verse tt's touched my heart...hear this, in ALL THINGS...God works for the GOOD of those who LOVE HIM...no matter wat decision i make...i know its a win win situation for me if i truly love God with all my heart...because God has given his promise...Amen...hallelujah...We can never make a lifetime of "right n Godly" decision and we never will...but how amazing and liberating it is to know tt God not only will bless u and work things out for you when u make decision tt he desires and does wat he plans for you but most importantly he also gave us a way to be blessed by him cos in our sinful nature we will make wrong decisions at some point of our life...but its because he loves us and wants us to be more like him...tt he gave us a promise as such...I feel so blessed by this verse today...i hope u folks out there will too be blessed and know tt your faithfulness to God will never go to waste...because GOD WILL HONOUR you.

Lord I pray i'll love u with all my heart God, help me Lord to find where i stand in you, in this period of emotional pains and struggles i ask of you Lord to hear my cry and grant me a way, search me and reveal to me areas which are not pleasing to you Lord...and change me Lord, to be more like YOU! In Jesus most victorious name i pray, AMEN!

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Monday, September 18, 2006

My Sunday

Today after church i went out with Jenn...had a good talk on some issue...you know bro(if u're reading this)...i really thank God for you...tt even though u've been busy...u never fail to stand by me when i needed help the most...u've guided me along when im down and helped me so much...i love u bro...u mean alot to me...Anyway after meeting out with Jenn i went to meet joey and he rest for soccer....finally...after SSSOoOOoo...LONG cos of army! ha. And i brought Andy and Jason along too. It was great having such fun with the rest of the guys again...but i doubt i'll go back to the team for good cos of my leg condition...the doc said my joints are really loose...like if i change direction too fast...my ankle will be in one direction while by body in the other( it DID HAPPEN before!!!)...haaa...and oh ya....the doc found out smth strange i can do...can u actually pull ur thumb down to touch ur wrist?? i can...and guess wat the doc told me...go bk and see wat other strange things u can do...wierd!! where got doc say this kinda things to patients one...so after soccer i went back early cos i got dinner with my aunt(who came bk from australia to visit) and my unlce(rach's dad whom i mention came back from shanghai)...yeah...played with me little cousin who came along...he's really funny...wait till i get a picture of him i'll upload it...im gonna slp sad today cos MAN UTD LOST!!! last min ditch by Arsenal...arrghhh....but it was well derserved...arsenal played better football...disappointing and lacklustre performance by united...ohwell...hope tmw when i wake up the sun will shine brightly and the day will be good...nite folks

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

Im Tired...

i just got home...had such a long day. Went to help my dad with his business from early afternooon...sent some stuff to G1 and G2...oh...n i saw my uncle(rach's dad whos back from shanghai) at G1..was glad to see him...he's one of my fav uncles...took care of me and my bro when we were younger cos we stayed at his place...haaa..those were the days....then went for jason's(platoon mate) 21st bdae after tt...brought my puppy(name's Chloe) along cos she'll go on a rampage if she's
home alone...this jason ah...he's the host and the BDAE boy but from the moment i arrived till the moment i left i only saw him like for 5mins...cos he went to holland V with stanley to buy ice and some other stuff....aiyo he shld have stayed and get someone to help him buy...everyone's like wondering where's jason...so funny to have a bdae when the bdae boy not around...like huh!!! Then cos my parents came to pick me up so i had to rush...din even get to take picture with jason...argh...nvm...we'll "deal" with him and the rest who last min put "aeroplane" and din turn up...on monday when we're bk in camp...got to go slp man...*yawn*

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Friday, September 15, 2006

No Love But Always Loved..

Have
u ever loved someone and for a long time thought tt someone loved you but you were totally wrong when u realise tt someone doesnt love u anymore and tt someone was just "trying to love you" all along. Can u ever say u love someone repeatedly and overnight say u dont? What is love exactly.
1 Corinthians 13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
style="font-size:130%;color:purple;">it keeps no record of wrongs.

6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I thought certain things once i put it aside and dun think about it...it'll never come and

bother me...im wrong...things tt happened are never supposed to be put aside...i need to

deal with it and face it and grow....but im tired...really tired....its been so

long...there's been so much pain...

"God i need to forgive and let go. I need to grow and move on....pls help me GOD! In jesus name i pray, Amen. Your child...gid...."

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

Feeling EMO....

I just came back to camp not long ago. Had nights out and i went to causeway point with Andy. Had a good time with this dude...am glad i get a chance to go
out with him. We walked around abit and looked at some stuff. Then i came upon a shop tt brought back some memories...suddenly a train of emotions just overwhelm me at tt point. Happy memories are painful to think about when u lose tt someone u shared the memory with.
Certain things are just not reversible. Guys and gals out there....learn to cherish the people u have around you NOW!!! Dont ever take it for granted tt they'll always be there...cos someday they just might not be anymore...So be true and treat pple around you with the love the LORD has showered upon us. I thank God his love for me is always there and this love never fails. Just spoke to Freda a while ago. Had a good conversation with her regarding the vocal lesson...i've kinda decided to ask Lily (the really good vocal coach....yes the one i have to pay $50ish..) if she has anymore vacant space to take in new students. Problem is he only teaches on Mondays(i cant come out of camp), Wednesdays(i might have prob getting back to camp in time cos she stays at harbour front area) and Fridays(she might not have an available night session)...sigh....will talk to Lily personally to see how things can be arranged...hope u guys have been having a great wk...tomorrows friday so its already almost the wkend...for those working hang in there and u'll get a nice break during the wkend...for those studying...esp those whos having exams...JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! Im still feeling down...gonna go slp and hopefully i wake up feeling better Lord....goodnight pals

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Special request by Andy my platoon mate....haaa...=)
~MAN UTD ROCKS~

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Arrghh....FREDA cant teach singing...bleah...thought of asking her to teach me singing since i've gotten the budget...but she's currently not giving vocal lessons...and the other vocal teacher i know..(who taught Johann and is teaching Freda now) is charging 90bucks per session...my oh my...wat am i gonna do man...after subsidy i'll still need to fork out like $52.50...*HEART PAIN*...i know i dun want to offer God anything tt wont cost me anything but its like 50ish....i still got hp bills, insurance, transport fares to take care of..where i find money?? Any kind souls wanna donate to the newly established fund of MR LIM here?? But im not complaining cos im already thankful tt the church has given me this training budget...lately i've been reminded to be thankful for all tt i have and not complain and be sad abt wat i dun and wat i've lost...how narrow minded of me and how self centered of me to keep thinking of myself...What God has given me all my life can never be used to compare with wat i dun have. Even for the simplest things i want to give God all the Glory and praise.
Luke 12
Do Not Worry

22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your

life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear.

23 Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes.

24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet

God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!

25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?

26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27 "Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even

Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.

28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow

is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith!

29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.

30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need

them.

31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

Wat truths and promises we all can hold on to. Thank God.

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Battalion BBQ

Battalion BBQ just ended. It was a crazy time. Din expect it to be so fun and interacting. Cos its like most of us are new to each other in the battalion...but hey, brothers are brothers...when it comes to fun no one cares who u r. So it started with us cooking for the "BIG HEADS!" (Chief of Artillery, CO,
Formation RSM etc etc...)...all our food got "stolen"....haa...but its ok. hope they dun end up getting food poisoning cos my frens mixed the tong used to take raw food with the one tts used to KIAP the cooked food. Now the thing is after we're done cooking for the "BIG HEADS", we thought we finally can get some food of our own. But i had to take picture and my other fren had to take video. And so by the time we're done....our spot at the BBQ pit was OWNED(dota term) by others. There's only like TWO(eng)....liang ge(chinese)....NENG EH(hokkien)....DUA(malay)...NANG EH(foochow--which happens to be my dialect n am proud of it...heh!) pathetic BBQ pits for the WHOLE BATTALION! For those who dun know how big a battalion is go ask ur bros, fathers, boy frens whos been in army. So no choice...we stuffed ourselves with fried rice....no BBQ food...i wasn satisfied so i decided to go get my spot back and when i did go over....hey...guess wat....just one nice corner at the pit for me to set up my MAMA shop!!! haaa...relac one corner brother! So started cooking for the rest of the guys as well...then my fren ZHUO JINWEI....we call him ZHUO D(dentention) B(barracks) cos he almost kena.....did the worse thing he ever did in his life...he went to chio my CO to drink beer....now of all pple he go chio the CO of my unit...not tt rank matters...but everyone in the unit knows my CO is a hardcore drinker...and so tts how his night ended....haaa...with red face, bloated stomach, and he went vommitting in the toilet...Dun understand wats so nice abt beer...i never once liked it...though i never once tried it either...my furtherest was...guess wat...JOLLY SHANDY...i cant even drink tt for nuts....think i drink beer will go into coma! ha. Its so late and all of them are still downstairs singing and partying...everyone's like overly HIGH!!! i want to SLEEP!!!

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Story is this. Company XXX(i cant say lest i get sued by them) is having a sale(today only for SAF personnels) on most items in their store. N just nice i thought of getting a mp3 player. So i called them yesterday n asked if i could go down yesterday(thinking they might let me have the discount if i showed them my 11B) cos i might not be able to go down today as my battalion is having some BBQ thing. Then they say cannot. So never mind. Then i asked them wat items are on discount and how much discount is given on the items. The reply was we don't know, u'll have to call us tomorrow during the actual sale then we will know cos the management will only reveal it tomorrow. So ok fine. then i called them again today, asked the same qns...guess wat the sales assistant told me....er..i cant tell u, u have to come down personally to take a look, reason being the discount price given on the spot wont tally with the discount price shown in the computer's system cos according to him it will prob be cheaper. So i said ok, so can i have a rough gauge of the discounted price of an ipod. Then he said, "you called yesterday right, i thought i told u yesterday". Then he proceed to tell me the original price, and i was like, "k so u cant say how much discount is given or whether its on discount", and he said ya you have to come down and take a look....and im like....SHOCKED!!! i told him, "oh....u cant say, then wat discount are u having if you cant tell ur customer whether the item is on discount or not and wat if someone goes all the way down just to find tt the item he/she wants is not on discount". i mean....arrghh....am too aggitated. Don't understand e system....shall go cool down...bleagh!!

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

My Very First Post

hmmm....now i dun really know why i started this blog...first of all, im not a very expressive person, secondly i feel certain personal things should never go beyond the internet...but watever the case is..im here. typing my 1st post. irony. well...to start off i guess i have to do an introduction right? cos tts wat blogs are about...talking about your life, sharing about things tts been happening to you..blah blah blah...k. Im born in 13Jan1985 at KK hospital and my mom said
i came out at 12midnight. How cool? If only it was new years day, i'll get HONGBAO! errr....think tts too much history. Let's start from a few days ago. Sunday. Hmmm....went
forrach's(my cousin) cell in the morning...had
an opportunity to share with her kids on how to prepare worship...man it was exciting.
Though i wasnt entirely prepared (cos she told me like the night before and i was busy
doing something else for my dad), i still am really glad tt i got to share with them. N
guess wat...thank God i brought the file which contained notes on worship leading which i've done for one of the workshops im to prepare with jenn
for the EA trip last year (or was it last last??)...helped me alot cos i was stoning due to the lack of sleep (slept at 2am n woke up at 7am, now i know some will say tts alot of rest cos u guys out there are MAD!!! you dun slp!) n couldn get my brain to generate much thoughts last min. So am really thankful God made a way somehow out of nowhere. yup. so we started with a time of worship, oh ya, their cell meeting is in a KTV room (its in a condo, one of rach's cell gals house), so all the better....sing it out loud for the lord man. HALLELUJAH! Christian KTV...cool! Then i had a time of sharing n interacting with them. I felt so happy. It was something i haven done in a long time (knocks my head!! Guilty guilty!). Really enjoyed the time with them...this brings me to a current problem im struggling with...i haven lead worship for a long time since i got into army, n i feel so out of touch with the youths. Now tt i have tt LITTLE, tinnie winnie LITTLE time to squeeze out of army, i want to go back to serving in ministry (i know i can serve in army too =>). I MIss drumming too. I did drum for Lee Choo and Peter's team within the past two months, but cos of army i really dun know how i can commit. Nothing beats a good time of worship with your bros n sis. But prob is army is giving me alot of last min stuff which makes me afraid to commit to serving. cos i dun want to last min have to play my team out cos army got some stuff...n finding someone to replace is not an easy thing cos we're so shorthanded. arrrghh....GOD make a way please. Anyway thank God, the church has allowed me to go for vocal training...thought of doing this for a long time but just didn have the motivation(BAD!!). But i finally stop procrastinating... and asked Pastor CuiXian to help me budget...now its confirmed...i can be on my way...yup. guess tts enough stuff for the first post...too long i feel...bear with me k...first post. i hate reading long posts too. so i guess i'll type mine shorter next time round! ha.

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