PSALM 27:4 "One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple."

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Matthew 5:46-48

46
If you love those who love you,
What reward will you get?
Are not even the tax collectors doing that?

47
And If you greet only your brothers,
What are you doing more than others?
Do not even pagans do that?

48
Be perfect, therefore,
As your heavenly Father is perfect.

How easy it is for us to love someone who's lovable...are not pre-believers doing that too? What makes you different then as a christian? As christians we often talk about God and how he loves us...you...me... etc etc etc...but when it comes to crunch time...we often shove the unlovable aside...im guilty of that at times...i've got nothing to hide about it...but at least i know and i recognise my mistake...and im working on it each day to change and show love...think about it...when was the last time u shove someone you don't like away...i dont mean physically...it might be an intention of the heart...that was carried out through other means...and worse of all...to use it as an excuse that the person has a particular flaw that you cant accept...pushing the blame to the other party...would you like it if someone else did that to you? Esp if that someone meant something to you...Think properly how hurting it can get...Everyone has flaws...if you can't accept other people's flaws and yet talk so much about love aren't you setting double standards? So you think you loved?

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

Unaware Victims Of Nikon D70S

These shots i took were taken with a Nikon D70S...i really love the camera...cool stuff...and of cos i caught some of my fellow course mates unaware...dun like to take pictures of people who end up posing for the camera...im not being rude...but cos its my preference...i'll still take if you pose...heee....prefer shots like these cos posed shots have no origninality plus its not natural...i love natural shots...speaks much of a person... =)

Doris

Sheikh

James

Staff Cheong

Junaidi

Aziz

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

My Barang Barang!

i just went through some of the old stuff i have at home...and guess what i found...*grinz* all wedding stuff....firstly its Josh and Anna's Wedding photos...which Daniel Heng and I had the honour of shooting...we did some outdoor shoot for them before the wedding day as well as the actual day photo shoot and video...here's some of their photographs...its amatuer shots k...one of the first few shoots Daniel and I did together so...dun expect too much...heee....and secondly its David and Audrey's Pre-Wedding "Rescue" video done by all the brothers which i shot and which Ricky and Shuan edited...its a must watch...you will laugh till stomach cramp!! (leave some comments if you wish too)...meantime enjoy =)

Taken near One Fullerton at the Umbrella Men...

Taken at Esplanade Walkway...

Taken at Changi Airport Terminal 1...

Taken at East Coast Park...

Taken at Changi Airport Terminal 1...

For David and Audrey's Pre-Wedding Video I had to split into 2 different parts cos photobucket only allow 5min video upload so...watch part one then part two k guys...=)
David & Audrey's Pre-Wedding Rescue Video Part 1
click to watch!!!

David & Audrey's Pre-Wedding Rescue Video Part 2
click to watch!!!

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Monday, October 16, 2006

How Silly Can I Get?

So...its Sunday morning...and im on my way to church for the 11:15 am service...Then as usual when i passed by Tampines Interchange...i was immediately approached by an insurance agent..and so like i always do...i said:"Its abt insurance? Its ok, im in a rush, thanks"...and she let me go...*phew*...usually its not the case cos they're pretty presistent and they will say like oh just a while lah...blah blah blah..but she seemed like she's new in this line so....you know...within a week i can get approached by these agents like...over 10 times...i've already got insurance...and im wondering, i wear civilian clothing and yet they still approach me...like i've got a stamp on my head that says... NSF, come trick me to buy insurance!! aiyo...then besides that its like you know those MacDonald's promoter or just normal people giving out brouches, papers etc...i really dun like to take all these papers...and so i'll have to keep saying "No thanks" or "It's ok".. (and smile) cos its only polite and courteous to do so...after all they're just doing their job...so with all that in my mind i finally reached church...and i was taking my ipod out to switch it off..cos was gonna go into the chapel already...then suddenly...i said:"No thanks, its ok"...to WHO?? I only realised i said it to the USHER that was only trying to give me the sermon outline and the grace pointer when i sat down....my goodness!!! AIYO....so MALU...i still can like eh...where's my sermon outline and grace pointer...then i recalled him giving me that strange and shocked expression...he must be really taken aback lah..."No thanks" & "It's ok"...Im so SILLY....

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

Who are YOU?

You looked only at what other's have done wrong...
You never looked at yourself...

You thought things were resolved...
You left a broken hearted behind...

You made yourself sound like the victim...
You made someone your victim...

You thought you were right...
You never saw where you went wrong...

You asked me why am i like that...
You never learnt to accept...

You thought you did it for a good reason...
You were just being selfish...

You seemed nice to everyone...
You were never true...

You thought you knew what love was...
You never knew how to love...

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Freda's Bdae & My Day

Freda Looks Blur =)

Mini Fondue and Satay Gravy...
What A Spreadddd!!!!

Baby Linus's fav line..."yummy yummy"

It's Freda's birthday...and we've got a surprise up our sleeves...was kinda last minute notice cos Ricky was only informed yesterday to gather us for this surprise...so i ended up having to rush back from camp...went to tampines mall and got her a nice purple card with a detachable bookmark which i think is really lovely...then cos of the lack of time i got her vouchers from Charles & Keith as a present (at least better than ricky and jeremy...both bought perfume!!) Haaa...then went home, took a quick shower and drove down to Freda's parent's place immediately....everything was going good...everyone came on time(8pm) and we waited till about 8ish coming 9pm for her to come back cos she went out with Peter and baby Linus for dinner....so in the meantime we took the time to write our birthday cards, decide where to hide and how to surprise her, and get the cake ready etc..then suddenly without any warning their car pulled up at the front door(wasn suppose to be like that cos they usually honk when they're back)...we saw the headlights and immediately went into a frenzy...got the cake out from the fridge and lit the candles quickly...then we rushed to their room to hide...along with the cake...we were like mad dogs running around cos we left all our bags and presents lying around...and so into the room we went...lights were off and we were in position...ready to sing out loud once she opens the door...kinda funny cos we were each trying to come out with a "key" to start the song...so we waited and waited then the door opened..it was Peter...so we kept real quiet...he came to tell us Freda went to the toilet(which was our initial place to hide in)...then Peter went out to try to get her to come to the room...so we waited...another minute passed by and no signs of her...then the door opened..."ta da..." Peter came to say:"come out...she knows already" *Booooo...mission failed* haaa...appraently Johann's big bag left lying around was seen by Freda as she went to put Linus's bag...and her dad actually confirmed it by asking Freda:"So where are they"...haaa....gave our game away...nevertheless we came out and sang her a bdae song etc...then went downstairs to have a time of fellowship...had alot of good food...fondue(the choc was abit sour...we all agreed on tt...haaa)....chicken wing....satay...cake...simple stuff but really...wat a nice and great time of fellowship we had...then i went to play with baby Linus after that...he's SOoooo adorable....haaa...he loves playing football and so we both had a great time...with him chasing me the whole time trying to get the soccer ball...and so i took the opportunity to educate him how to ask for the ball and of cos after he asked...i always do this to kids just for your information...heee...i said:"give me a kiss first?"...and he did....haaa...hey im not bribing them or cheating them k...if they dun want to give they wont give one...heh! Then it was time to go back and baby Linus said bye to everyone...and it was by name k...so he pronounced mine as "me-deonnnnnn...." and he dargged the deon...haaa...so CUTE...and when Peter asked him to kiss Jeraldine and Jeremy he refused but when Linus was asked to kiss me he gladly planted a kiss on my cheek...haaa...wat a sweet boy...truly made MY DAY!!

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I've been trying to sleep the past 1hr-ish...but i just cant fall asleep...i used to say:"we'll create beautiful memories together"...but now all i can say is i've created a whole load of painful memories to bear with for the rest of my life...its been almost 4months since tt very day...things just changed by a word...but inside of me...till this very day...things have not changed...the pain i've to go through each day...the memories that haunt me...what have i done SO WRONG to deserve all tt...so many things had been said to justify the reason given...but what is love at the end of the day? I used to tell myself if i ever love...i'll love wholeheartedly, be faithful and committed...i never once gave my heart to someone till im sure because i dun want to hurt anyone...and i never want to take love lightly...moreover to treat it as a game...but i've been fooled...the one who thought love will last forever...was left dealing with the PAIN while the one who wanted out...left happily and showed no signs of sadness till this day...was DISAPPOINTED by the very pple that he thought were his frens but turned their backs on him without hearing from him...was labelled CHILDISH...was called EMOTIONAL...was said to be INSECURE all the time...was CRUSHED so deeply he'll never forget it...was BETRAYED by the very words that told him how love was meant to be...I never in my entire life...NEVER thought somone could hurt me so so badly...i might as well be stabbed in my heart...cos at least tt will end the pain straight away...can anyone understand the pain i've to bear with? NO! And no one will EVER...i can hide it but i cant deny it...if that is how love is to be...i'll never want to have it...All i did was to LOVE...but i got SLAPPED and got nothing back and even have to deal with the lost ON MY OWN! when will it be over...it'll never ever be...its here to stay and it will be with me the rest of my life...and i'll have to take it with me FOREVER....DUN EVER SAY U LOVE SOMEONE WITHOUT THINKING CLEARLY WHAT LOVE MEANS....dun....

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Sunday, October 08, 2006

Full of Frustrations

Im tired....and i want to slp...but i have so much frustrations i must let it out somewhere...it all started in the evening...my dad called me...and he asked:"what are u doing tmw?"...i really dread it whenever he ask me that...cos thats = i need help tmw...its last min..arrghhh...i got so frustrated..he does it to me ALL THE TIME! And i've already told him like a MILLION times NOT to tell me last minute stuff and esp NOT to touch my SUNDAYS! sigh...i've always felt very obliged to help my parents with their work...cos they're not young and i dun want them to overwork...its not the negative side of obligation but rather the i dun want them to work so hard or get injured or sick....and in fact i've always felt like im the only one they depend on(cos im the older son, plus i drive... and my sis usually dun help cos for the obvious reason she's a girl) and tts a whole load of responsibility...and if i dun help or cant for some reason i'll feel really bad and i'll feel like im a lousy son...but i also dun like it when my dad gives me last min stuff to handle...its like i've arranged everything nicely and plan who to meet or where to go and blah blah blah...then out of no where he'll come and tell me he needs help...i'll feel super irritated cos i have to cancel everything and go help him...then after telling me that, 10 minutes later i received another call from my dad and he ask me to go down in 5 mins to help him...im like....WAT! Cos i have to meet rach to practise for e workplan worship tmw morning which she's leading(rach u owe me one cos u said u'll come to my house 5pm but u never!!! u always put me plane! heee)...and if i go means i cant practise with rach till i come back and i dun know wat time will tt be...then if i dun go help my dad...NO ONE ELSE CAN! sigh...so once again i went...then he was like rushing and all...and i really dun like him rushing esp when he's behind the wheel...cos he'll end up driving fast...and he'll be really frustrated and he'll tailgate SUPER DUPER closely to the car in front...if u sit in his car when he's like tt and ur heartbeat dun go up twice or thrice i'll buy u a CAR!!! i've told him so many times dun tailgate...dun rush...cos accidents WILL happen....and he's got heart problem before and this kind of stress and rushing will trigger his heart even more...sigh...just when will he listen? Then also because he kept wanting to rush i got a huge cut on my back now...arrghh...so so frustrated...there's alot more but i think u guys will be sick and tired of it if i go on blabbing! So end of story is i got home...rushed to rach's house and practise then rush back and shower....and then here i am bloggin my frustrations...i really pray my dad will listen to advice one day...i know he just wants to give us the best but i dun want him to be doing it at a risky expense....im just gonna go slp now...its almost 1am i gotta wake up at 5ish...really tired now...

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Day 1

I had such a terrible night yesterday...tossed and turned on my bed for an hour plus before i slept off...arrghhh....couldnt sleep cos i was feeling so breathless due to the excessive coughing...to make things worse...i woke up at 5.30am this morning...sigh...have been sick for so many days...and i dun really wanna go see a doc cos i dun like to...guess i have no choice..gotta see one soon not i'll have more sleepless nights to come...anyway first day at new camp...it was really really BOOORRRING!!! lecture after lecture the WHOLE day...plus we ended only at 6plus...then i rushed home cos i gotta go back to my unit tonight to continue doing the COC video...guess wat...mom suddenly say she needs the car too to send some mooncakes to my aunt...so i had to drive her down and back before going back to camp...by the time i reach camp it was already 9pm...and i haven even had my dinner...so no choice...bought Chong Pang Nasi Lemak on the way lor...and eat in camp while i do the video...think if i everyday rush like tt i'll just collapse man...although im very fit one...right!!! haaa...think i shall attempt to slp now cos i got a feeling im gonna take a long time to fall asleep again....bleah!!! night folks

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

You GOTTA read this!!

I just found out from another guy that's from 23SA who's also on the Supply Supervisor Course that my course is a...hear this....STAY OUT course...Praise The Lord! Who would have thought of that? Story is this, rem in my earlier post i said i cant serve in ministry cos of my early book in timing 2230...plus army keeps giving me all the last minute stuff...then as of last week i got good news that our book in timing is being extended to 2330...so that's pretty good...means i can serve...but also still quite rush cos gotta book in after practise...then guess what...now im getting a book out course...Woa...dun need to book in after practise...plus i can go home first after my course and get the car out so wont reach home too late after pract...then after my course i'll be SGT which means my book in timing will be 2359 instead and i can book out everyday!!! WOA...God works in amazing ways we CANNOT understand..at least for ME!..Amazing...nothing stops the work of God...i really praise him and give thanks and glory to him for all of that...Amen!

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Arrghhh....army is always so last minute...guess what just happened. My chief clerk called me to go down to the office to see her...then when i went there she said:"Gideon, will u buy me lunch if i tell u tt u're downgraded to C9L2?"..i was like...ok mdm, wats the hidden agenda? Then she told me tmw i got to report to my new camp(sembawang camp) for supply supervisor course...*Bleah* i freaked out man...super last minute notice...its like taking me out of my comfort zone...after settling down in this battalion now i have to get used to another environment...arrgh...now back to trainee life...which means waking up early, gotta march, gotta book out late and book in early, less nights off or even no nights off...AHHHH!!!!! Means i might not be able to go back to play drums....*crushed*..God pls tell me whats going on and what u have for me...im so ignorant tt i simply cant see what u have installed for me...now i just gotta pray hard tt this course is stay out...sigh...currently my S3 just sent a mail to the course commander requesting me to come back every night cos im suppose to be doing the COC parade videos and photos...and the COC parade is coming 20th OCT...and if i go whos gonna do?? cos the other person who knows how to do these stuff is my staff whos on course too...aiyo...so many changes and so much things going on...i really dun like things to be so disorganised and unconfirmed!! HELP....

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Monday, October 02, 2006

Im Sick

Im feeling sick since yesterday...after dinner i just slept all the way till i had to book in and i had to drag myself back to camp...woke up today feeling so tired and so sick...arrghh...then i spend like dun noe how long trying to figure my new blog skin out...cos its like on mozilla firefox it displays something but on internet explorer it displays something else...*bleah* y cant someone make it more user friendly??

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

Moving On...

Im bloggin again...after a long wk..nothing much went on the entire wk...just really random stuff...and me picking myself up and finding where i am in God...its been a rather good time of self reflection..still struggling but moving on slowly...Today i went to Suhui jie's SEC1 cell meeting to have a time of worship with them...it was awesome...i loved it. We were worshipping in the open..in front of the flag pole(cell's in a secondary sch)...yup...weather was gloomy but alright...humid but not hot...but i loved the closeness we had with each other despite the vast open space...i've always dreamt of leading worship in the open...in front of loads of people...coming together to have a time of worship in the open where everyone can hear about who we're singing about!! Awesome time of worship as i see the younger ones engaging God in their own way...i had a great time of worship myself too...and then off to service...Pastor Paul Goulet preached today...about finding our destiny that God has for us...i felt so ministered, blessed and refresehed by the sermon...plus the really good time of altar call which goes on and on and on...haaa...those who were there will know what i mean...great great time of lingering and worshipping God...not rush but just waiting on the Lord...i loved tt...then had lunch with Peter's family, Wheijie & Fabia + their australia frens and Ricky. I love Linus Mark(Peter's son)...he's super adorable...and he
can self entertain somemore...in the car he was like...first he screamed...then he said:
"No screaming"...then "Naughty"...haaa...all of tt in tt cute voice of his...*awww*...haaa...then we went to a thai restaurant and i ate some thai fried noodle...yummy....it was super good...recommanded by Fabia...it had 3chilli sign(the max) next to it...and she was saying when Joey ate it..he asked for less chilli but still ended up having a bad time...ha...poor guy! But im chilli king...heh! So to me it wasnt tt hot and it was really delicious and tasty...then off to soccer training...had a good time too....now im bk at home...getting ready to book in...*sian* back to military life again...and this wk i have loads of work to do in office...hope i wont slack and can finish it in time...got to chao for dinner folks...have a blessed and fruitful wk ahead. =)

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